一个孤独的女人，同样也是一个情感丰富的女人，她在周末的空闲里会做些什么呢？在众多的选择中．詹却选择了独自守在郊区的木屋里用写作的形式来发泄自己的情感。写作虽然不是她的专业，却帮助她体验成就感，帮助她从生命中曾经忍受的痛苦中摆脱出来……
Themorningwasmoist,andthefoghadsetinlasteveningandstillmaskedovertheshabbycabinhiddendeepwithintheTurtleMountains.Sheshiveredasshesteppedbarefootontounfinishedslabsthatheldherdecktogether.ShehadpurchasedtheslabsfromtheHillbillyBoardStore.
Herwhitesleepinggownhungbelowherkneeswithjustawhitecottonlace.Hersofthairwasloosely(宽松地)tiedbackwithapieceofpurpleribbonsoftlyandgloriouslyfallingoutthesidesandtouchinghercheeksofpaleskin.
Jenwassogladtobeoutofthecityforafewdays.Thiswasherweekendretreat.Shelovedthecabin.anditgaveherconfidenceandpeaceandcomplacency(满足)inherself.Jenworkedeverydayinanattorney’sofficeasaconsultant.Shehandledstacksoflegaldocumentsdaily.Sowhentheweekendandholidayscamearoundshewouldheadforhercabin.Hercabinwasthirty-sevenmilesfromthecity.Itwasexcludedfromothercabinsatthelake.Shelikeditthatway.
Jenhadasecret,asecretshenevertoldanyone:shewasanamateurwriter.Shehadaloveforwriting.Herwritingiscomprisedbyessays,fables,poems,andtruestoriesaboutpeopleshehadcometoknow.Writingcompositionsaboutherchildhoodshecouldrecalloranythingthat:keptherinterest.Jennevertoldanyoneaboutherloveforwriting.Shealwaysfeltpeoplewouldconsiderherasabitcrazy.Withsomanyactivitiestodoonweekends,whywouldshechoosetositandwrite?
Thecabinwasperfect:thebreezewasfragrantandshecouldhearfrogscroak(咕咕叫)fromtimetotime.Shewouldsitwithherpeninhandandherspiraltablets(活页簿)andwouldwritewhatevercametohermind.Sometimeshernovelsandstorieswoulddominateherandmakehercrysohardthatshewouldhavetoputherwritingdownandaskherselfwhyshewasdoingthis.
Shewouldwriteasong,thenhumit-andsingittoherselfuntilshebelieveditwasarealsong,reallikethesongsontheradioortelevisionorevenimaginedsomefamoussingersinginghersong.
Fromherstandpoint,writinggaveherafeelingofcompletesatisfactionwithherself.It’snotherexpertisebutithelpedhertoexperiencesuccessesandovercomethepainshehadenduredthroughoutherlifetime.Ithelpedhertoarticulatethefeelingsdeepinherheart.Ithelpedhertobringimaginarypeopleandplacestorealityinhermind.Itwasafreedomnooneeverknew.Herwritingwashertruecomplementandsoulmatethatshecouldtrust.
Jenrecentlyhaspurchasedacomputerandtookanoathtoherselfthatshewouldcompileherwritingsandputthemintothecomputerjusttohaveforherself.Itwasanundertakingwhichwouldtakeawhilebuthavingherwritingsorganizedforthefirsttimewouldbegreat.
Itwasgoingtobeadreary(阴沉的)weekend,butJendidn’tmind.Shedidn’tplanonspendingitoutsideanyway.Forher,itwasastressfulweekend.Shehadtoomanytaskstocompleteandthehourswentawaytoofastforherwhenshewasnotatwork.
Stretchingherarmsaboveherhead,stickingoutherchinandyawningasifitwereasignoffreedom,Jenstretchedeverymuscleinherbody.“Goodmorning,world”,sheyelledoutassheturnedtogointohercabin.
Thecabinwassmallindimension,havingfourroomstobeexact,butitwasallJenneeded.Herlivingroomandkitchenwerecombinedinonelargeroomonlythekitchentableseparatingthem.Thebedroomwasdirectoppositetheliving-roomandthebathroomfacingthekitchen.Thebacksideofthecabinwasanenclosedporchthatwasscreenedtoenjoyafreshbreezeinthewarmeveningsandyetkeeptheirritatingbugsaway.
Jenpouredherselfaglassofbrandy,satatherkitchentableandstaredintospace.Wordswererunningthroughhermind,wordsofpeace,wordsofbeautyandpoetrytorelaxby.
ShepickedUDherDenandstartedtowrite.
Feelinglikerosepetals(花瓣)softenedbythemorningdew,
SweetscentfillsthesoulwhenIthinkofyou.
ThewayyouholdmewhenIadzlonelyanddown
Likedropsofwaterrunningthroughapebbledbrook.
AndthelaughterinyoureyeseverytimeIlook,
Likesoftrainfalling,Ihavelovedyoufromthestart.
Iknowyoucannevershowyourloveforme.
Yourlifehasbeendraftedandsheisyoursforever.
ButdarlingIneedyoutounderstand1willalwaysloveyou.
I’llbeherewhenyouneedmeevenifit’sforanhourortwo.
Iwillneverloveanotherand1willdiewithyouinmyheart.
Forbiddenasitmaybe,Ihavelovedyoufromthestart.
Sheputthependownonthetablethereafterasshecouldfeelhereyesfillingupwithmist.Shebegantosob.Damnhim,whydidhedothistome,whydidItorturemyself.Iknewhewasamarriedman,IalwaysknewitandyetIletmyselffallinlovewithhim.
Jenwipedthetearsthatwerestreamingdownhercheeks,andsheknewshehadtogetonwithherlire.
Theweekendwentfast,Jenhadenteredoveronehundredofherpoemsonthecomputerandhadwrittenafewnewonestoo.Shecriedalotoftearsandyethadafewgoodlaughsasshewasreadingwhatshehadwritten.Shealwaysenjoyedgoingbackandreadingherpreviouswritings.Sometimesshehadevenforgottenshehadwrittensomeofthem.
AsJenlockedthecabindoor,sheslowlywalkedtohercar,knowingitwouldbeanotherweekbeforeshecouldreturn.Shelovedthecabinandherwriting.Afterallitwasallshehadrightnowasshewastryingherbestnottobreakupherbestfriend’smarriage.
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